Tuesday, 18 July 2017

Quite the break between drinks....

 So its been quite the break here on the blog...
 a six month break which I certainly never planned
 but somehow the time just ran away and before I knew it, it felt like the blog was just one  thing too many in a sea of too much on my plate.
 But I missed it, and then I felt like it had been too long since I posted so I should abandon it or I couldn't really just start again could I, but then I just thought bugger it the blog is something I love and miss so I am going back in baby

 In many ways the website, business and my professional life in general has taken precedence for six months. Its been fun and quite the ride
 but now it is time to reclaim a bit of a personal space back, and for me that is blogging.
 Sharing my life in long form again
 not just in an Instagram photo or story, a Facebook post or a Pin
 but sharing the words as well as the pictures
so I've done a bit of a spruce up with the look of things here, though like all things it's a work in progress...but I am back in the swing...

so whats been happening you may wonder... well lots actually...

The house renovations were epic
and it looks fabulous if I do say so myself.
Is it finished? ... not quite... in fact lots of little things still to go, but all the construction is done, and it is all fun stuff really and we are taking our time and enjoying the finishing touches and even though it's not quite finished the house is transformed
 I will share some pics over coming posts because I do love it
It feels like the house really reflects us as a family now and it is light and fresh and open
not that we were all dark and gloomy before, but it just feels better
Gone are the dark floors, scary downstairs bathroom and dated kitchen, and the rarely used dining room has become a space we practically live in
So overall it is a joy to come home too.

Was it stressful?... at times
Did the tradies drive me nuts? ... sometimes
Did it feel like we would never live free of dust and debris? ... often
Was it fun?... mostly
Was it worth the time and money and sheer exhaustion it led to? ... totally
We love it...

In the interim lots of other changes have been happening as well
Barry has completely won our hearts and has proved to be gloriously odd
and surprisingly snugly for a cat that lived as a stray for so many years
he is certainly a healthy sod now, some may even say a tad portly
but he is also magnificent

Sinus Man is still snoring like a trucker
teasing all and sundry and asking us to pull his finger regularly
and Barry has learned to tolerate being woken up and cuddled at odd times and also being patted with enthusiasm and vigor by Sinus
they are forming quite the friendship it would appear

Phants, that sweet and slightly odd little girl 
that so many of you have gotten to know over the years turned 21
scary right?
she is still the same weirdo... just an old weirdo now
and her and Barry make quite the pair as she has somehow trained him to be the most dog like cat I have ever come across

There have been lots of work changes too
I have a solo exhibition locked in for next year
the online store has been booming
commissions and illustration work kept me very busy
and even Etsy has managed some sales
people continue to trickle into the online classes
and I now have an agent who looks after wholesale sales 
which has been a steep learning curve and it has certainly kept me busy
and in general I paint and create lino prints at every opportunity
in short my creative life is full and happy

But the biggest change is personally
Cancer returned a few months ago and now we are deep into chemo again to shrink the bastard tumours that spread from a single cell that escaped treatment of a few years ago when lefty went rogue and now breast cancer has appeared in my liver
which sucks... I'm not going to lie and say it is all ok... cause some days it really isn't
and I get very pissed at the unfairness of it, and sad to be in this position again 
hearing words like incurable are shattering, and life altering and scary in the extreme
but then there is such advances in treatments and what used to be a quick-ish slide now is treatable for many many years, and especially when caught insanely early as it was with me
and while it sucks being bald again
and chemo is not any prettier, there are gifts as well
there is hope and advances in treatment every day
I can expect years between invasive treatments thanks to clever clogs researchers
trials also offer hope of even more time, and the changes in just a few short years are mind boggling, so the plan is to embrace all the advances and hang around for a good long time.
The confidence of the doctors and treatment staff is inspiring and keeps me positive
plus I have an incredible team and such support around me

And you know what it does focus you and gets you thinking about what is important
granted it is quite the extreme way to reassess your priorities
but its always a good thing to stop and look at what you are doing and decide what's important right...
and one of the things I kept coming back to was missing blogging
so here I am... 
happily back in blog land

 So you are all caught up... kind of
and it feels good to be back
actually it feels fricking great...

happy painting all... xx


Penny said...

Amazing blog - amazing woman. So glad you're back! Sending hugs xxx

ann @ studiohyde said...

Great to see you back again, and what a lot has happened. Your house reno sounds so exciting, even if it was trying at times for you. Looking forward to seeing pics sometime....you can tell I'm one of those TV viewers who loves reno programs.

What a sod the cancer is, fighting the bastard with your positive attitude is the winning way.

I've been thinking of trying lino cutting myself, but not sure my brain can cope with backward thinking.

All the best to you and yours.

Linda Kunsman said...

I am LOVING you updated blog, and your new home renovations!! SOOO good to have you back as I am not on instagram and rarely appear in FB. Your art is stunning as always. I am so sorry to hear your cancer has returned but again, you have a great attitude and wonderful support and treatment. So my thoughts and prayers continue for you. XO

Sue McGettigan said...

Nice to see a blog post by you, it's like a home-coming :) Lovely art and home, all good wishes as you fight the good fight, thinking of you often, and hoisting a morning cuppa right now in a very charming Rod Kirkham mug :) xo

Anonymous said...

Love you as always and happy to hear the stories in your Tracey way...

Marylinn Kelly said...

Hurrah! for your bright spirit and for medical advances. I've enjoyed your art for probably a few years now and don't know that I'd ever read your blog. I'll be back to check out some of the topics mentioned beneath the comments. Wishing you well in all that you pursue. With admiration and love, xo

Jennifer McLean said...

Oh my dear friend, it's lovely to have you back in blogland. I've missed reading your words, silly stories and general awesomeness. It's a good thing. Love you muchly and hugs all around to everyone. xxoo

https://linsartyblobs.blogspot.com said...

It's great to see you back again. Love the t-pot. Good luck with the cancer treatment, hope it works.

Jo Murray said...

It's been very quiet without you. You are facing this new hurdle with your usual humour and optimism, an example to us all. Your new surroundings must be a delight...what you've shown us is SO you. Glad to hear that little has changed with Sinus and Phants, and that Barry has turned out to be a 'keeper' after his previous abandonment. Blogs are a great way to chat about stuff. Good for you, and us. Keep'em coming.

Snap said...

Amazing woman, amazing artist, fun loving ... you've been missed. xx

Elaine said...

Glad you're back, Tracey. You're a freakin' inspiration.

Liz Powley said...

So wonderful to see you back and, as always, an inspiration to all.

Looking forward to seeing more of your gorgeous work.

Best wishes,

Anonymous said...

love, love, love the dining room. and you can come and go as you wish...we'll be here to listen to your crazy antics whenever you have a chance to tell them. can't wait to see the rest of the house. praying for you. -stacey

minnemie said...

Oh what a DELIGHT to have your name pop up in my inbox! Your words, your art, you yourself remain an inspiration and encouragement to all.I am sad to read about the cancer, and that you have to walk this journey. I will pray for you, for your sweet family who accompanies you on this journey, for the medical advances and much more. You rock.

Sandra Busby said...

I had a feeling a new post was imminent, because I checked in every couple of weeks 'just in case' you had posted... and the last time I looked, I saw the ew look, which by the way I LOVE!!! As you know, I love all of your blue and whites... Just awesome! And the house looks amazing! And like you say, a cure is just around the corner, so I have no doubt you will kick ass!!

Niki said...

So glad you are back in blog land, I missed your chatty and artful posts. It's exciting to hear how your art is growing commercially. I'm praying for your quick and complete recovery.

Thanks for the update!

Rita said...

I have missed you!! Many soft hugs from Fargo. (Not sure if you can handle big ones.) So very sorry to hear about the stray cancer cells giving you hell, but I trust the professionals will track them down and rid you of them once and for all.

Glad the renovations are mostly done and that Barry has fit right in and become part of the family. Love all your blue and white works. Congrats on all the success! Say hi to Pheobe and I hope she's doing well. 21--OMG!! Much love. :)

Caitlyn said...

Welcome back! I've been missing your posts

Susanne Vargas said...

So good to have you back blogging! Always enjoy reading your posts and looking at your amazing artwork!
Not so good to hear about the returning cancer... but with your awesome support team, your art, and your beautiful home you'll get through it! Big hugs!

Sheila said...

Love the new blog look. Blue and white is an old favorite. And so, I love your dining room too!!! My kinda place, relaxed and cozy. Love the table, the chairs - natural. And the bench!!! My dream house has built in bench.
You are right. It is not fair. But ya' gotta fight a good fight.. and it sounds like you are :) Sending prayers, and good thoughts.

Jennifer Rose said...

happy you are blogging again, not happy about the cancer tho. nothing to say but that just really sucks :/

Unknown said...

Like everyone previously has said, welcome back. I have missed your delightful patter about your family and wonderfully crazy stories and am delighted you have returned to blogland. Sending best wishes.

JillGA said...

I'm sorry this is happening to you. I am very glad you are back and that you are facing your battles with a positive warrior stance.


Tracey, it's so lovely to have your blogging presence back online again - you're right, in your case, Instagram just isn't the same and your lovely wonderfully truthful blog.

I've also been MIA from blogging for quite some time, popping back every month or so with an update blog just to keep my hand in and because for some strange reason I felt guilty for neglecting my faithful old blog which has been there for me from the beginning unlike Instagram which I've been using more and more as it's just easier. I have really missed your blogs and have popped back every so often just in case I somehow missed one.

I'm glad that your art life has been so incredibly busy and full of great news and world domination. It truly does suck that the cancer has come back. Life is a mystery sometimes but if well wishes and positive vibes play any part in someone's recovery then you will surely kick this motherf*ck&r in the bahookie. xx

Serena Lewis said...

I'm so happy to see you blogging again, Trace! You have been missed here in Blogland. I love the new colours in your home as I've always loved blues and whites together. I have a lot of grey accents here so that's a winner for me too. Navy blue was my favourite colour in young adulthood and I still love it. Your dining room looks amazing and I'm so looking forward you seeing more of your lovely home.

Great to see Barry has settled into his forever home... I'm so glad he found you all.

As to that bloody cancer... it totally sucks that you have to go through this horrible journey again. You have a great attitude and a fantastic sense of humour so that will be of huge benefit to you. I will be keeping you in my thoughts and prayers... you can beat this! And don't be afraid to lean on us if you need to.

Love and hugs to you xx

Christine said...

Tracey I am so sorry to hear your cancer has returned, please stay strong. Welcome back to blogland anyway! Missed your superb art.

Indira said...

Your art, especially the blue ones, makes me swoon. I am glad you are enjoying your newly renovated home. I am sorry about your cancer. You are right. There are really lots of advances in therapies which offer hope for beating it and living a long life. My best wishes and prayers for your full recovery.

Giggles said...

Oh Tracey I have no idea how I missed this poignant post!! I didn't blog for a bit and missed it! However you must have got my telepathic message as I snooped around your website looking for a new blog post a few weeks earlier! I have missed all your wonderful words! For as prolific an artist as you are there is an amazing wordsmith begging to come out too!! Sorry you're having to fight so hard once again...but you're in my prayers!! Your renos are gorgeous as is your teapot! Love the kitchen table with the cozy bench. I commend you for going through all the dust though, so difficult!! All the best Tracey, you are such a gift to the art and writers world!

Hugs Giggles

Irene Rafael said...

Hello Tracey, I have missed your blogging! This week's blog brought me here to see what has been happening in your world. A lot! Can't wait to see pics of your renovation. The process is the pits but when it's done, you wonder why you didn't start earlier so you can enjoy your home. Glad all the beings in your household are faring well and getting along. Congrats on your solo show and continued sales. Your art is unique and delightful! I am saddened to hear that cancer has returned. It is so true that the medical advances keep coming and gives hope to all. Your attitude is truly inspiring.
~~ Irene