Friday, 8 November 2013

Back In The Studio.... Finally ....


Feels awesome to be back in the studio after the longest break I have taken in years
weeks without painting and drawing have taken quite the toll on my sanity
and before you all snort and scoff that I was ever completely sane
I admit it is all relative, though I have been a touch loopier than normal lately

But  luckily there is something about the scratch of a pen on paper
the smell of the paints, splotching them on the palette
the swish of the paint brush in the water container 
that calms the brain and makes all seem a little bit more manageable
even cancer and chemo are easier to take with a brush in my hand
it is totally the best therapy around


More great therapy is having amazing flowers delivered 
and these crazy gorgeous blooms from my sister in law Kris are stunning
I love these lilies which smell so diving
and they are a favourite to draw though I haven't attempted them in a while
but I jumped in and was hugely and happily surprised that I still had some skills

There is always that moment when the pen pauses
and you wonder if you have suddenly forgotten how to draw
I almost resorted to using a pencil for a minute
but in the end I couldn't be assed hunting one down so I ended up with this pen drawing
which I was thrilled with... maybe the break was a good thing all round


I was quite excited to get started on it this morning
and then I glanced up and saw one I had drawn a few years ago
and was completely overcome by panic that I wouldn't be able to capture it as well
I used watercolours and prismacolour pencils and it is a bit of a favourite
and it is right there front and centre gazing down at me from the studio wall
just daring me to do a crap job of the new one


so with rather uncharacteristic restraint
I decided to maybe do some painting on something else first and not risk ruining the drawing
so I painted up the last drawing I had completed before my enforced break
which was an ever so fascinating view of my kitchen window
hardly that thrilling I know but a good way to ease back into paint mode


and while the end result may not be my most light handed piece
it was sound enough to restore some confidence so I jumped in to the lilies


layer one all good ... 


and layer two came along pretty well too
and that is as far as I have gotten with it at this stage
because it is on the last layer that it could all go terribly wrong
so I am going to go and make another cup of tea and fortify myself with some chocolate
and attack it while the painting gods are being kind
happy painting all ... xx

PS ...  thanks so much to all of you who have been sending cards and messages and emails
you have been such amazing support and have kept a smile on my face through this whole horrible mess... seriously you are all gloriously amazingly perfect people to have in my life and I am grateful for each and every one of you... xx

69 comments:

Moon Stumpp said...

I'm so glad to see you back in the studio...I know it keeps me sane. I can't wait to see the final result!!!

Laurie said...

this post made my day, so glad you are back painting, continued healing, you are a true inspiration,

Gourdess said...

So glad to see you painting again! Lotsa <3 & hugs.

minnemie said...

Ahhh, BIG smile to you. You will never loose it - your skill that is. Now your mind is a different story of course;-)OK, just kidding - I will leave Sinus and Phantom to be the judges on that;-)

storybeader said...

it's amazing how you work with your watercolor. Glad you jumped back in - hope you're feeling better. {:-Deb

Faye said...

Beautiful work, Tracey. I'm so glad you are doing it again. And the pen drawings are just awesome!

JoyCorcoran said...

Glad you're back doing what you're made to do. Your line work is always so amazing. I'm jealous that you can do so well without a pencil map first. Don't let those other lilies scare you -- your most recent ones will be amazing. Keep crazy and carry on. :)

Teacher5Reader said...

I'm so glad to hear you are back in your studio! You've given me incentive to crack open the door to my art room and begin my novice attempts again. Unlike you (with many degrees on the wall), I have learned to draw and enjoy creating on paper along with my fourth grade students! So thankful our district has art specialists who come to our rooms for 90 minutes every other week!
As you now enjoy your studio, enjoy the T-Mobile "Welcome Home" from Heathrow (always my favorite) :-) Many hugs from Washington State - Rebecca

Teacher5Reader said...

Oops - forgot the east link for you to enjoy the music! https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NB3NPNM4xgo
Rebecca

Helen Campbell said...

I was thinking of you last night, and am so glad to see you're up to painting and blogging again. The pen sketch and paintings are lovely! Sending healing energy!

Patricia said...

Seeing that you are back in the studio made me smile big!! Really beautiful work here!! So happy that art has been your therapy!! Big hugs, my friend!!

Sheila said...

Oh my goodness, I had no doubt, but your first two layers prove it! You are still the same amazingly talented artist you have always been! Looking forward to your finale on this one. So glad you are back to your painting - so glad you are well!

Tammy N said...

Welcome back. You certainly didn't lose your artistic touch. Your art looks great.

froebelsternchen Susi said...

wonderful to see you back ! awesome post!
Happy PPF!

Jane Blogs said...

Oh my god!
I've hardly been online since June, for a couple of reasons, and you go & get all lopsided on me! I can't leave you alone for a minute!

Seriously, Tracey...
I was so shocked and sorry to read about your last 4mths with breast cancer. I'm glad the prognosis has been positive, but no matter how good, it still scares the shit out of you.

My mother had bc about 11yrs ago ( she's been fine since) and even though it was a relatively mild type, I can still remember the shock and disbelief, followed by fear, and then by the "you just have to do what you have to do".

I wish I had been aware of what you were going through, to support and cheer you on.
I did stumble across some wigs I think you'd like on etsy, and if I'd had your address I'd definitely have sent you one..
Huge hugs (while taking care not to squash lefty), jane xxxxx

Patsy Paterno said...

I'm glad you are feeling better, and can enjoy your painting again. It's not finished yet but the blooms look fabulous already! Patsy

Ginny said...

Hi Tracey, It is so good to see you back. You definitely have not lost your skills. Your windowsill with all of its details is great. I hope you enjoy completing your painting as much as we will all enjoy seeing it.

Lynn Cohen said...

Thanks to the humor fairies for bringing you back...I missed your sunny self! I'm glad you're feeling well enough to draw and paint so beautifully! Huggies!

Brown Paper Bunny said...

Like the others I'm glad you're back in the studio. Your pieces this week are beautiful, thank you for sharing!

Giggles said...

So glad you are back in your comfortable place....Even though you're not back up to par it's good to know you are finding snippets of joy along the way!! Gorgeous flowers...and I love the scene at your kitchen window...I especially love the colored soap containers peeking out and the tile!!

Hugs Giggles

Valerie-Jael said...

Great to see you back again! Valerie

Creatively yours Fi said...

I was just thinking about you earlier today Tracy and am so pleased you've posted a great blog post and gorgeous painting. I'll have to share it :) Wishing and hoping you feel stronger every day x

Nic McLean said...

I'm super delighted to see you back in blog land and back painting and making us smile with your words. Good on you for drawing straight with pen-it really does focus the mind yo make more effort to fet it right first time, doesn't it? And you did. Your original lily painting is stunning but I've no doubt your new one will be just as good. X

missy k said...

Great to see you have been back in your studio... lots of love Karen x

ann @ studiohyde said...

Really pleased you are back into the painting groove. Only you could draw cups on a kitchen window and make them look so good. Looking forward to seeing your completed lily painting too. Hoping you are feeling better these days after the dreaded chemo...ann

www.dorissdaughter.com said...

So pleased to hear you are well enough to get back into the studio Tracey. I love the work you have done on the lilies and look forward to seeing it finished

Anne Manda said...

Hey Tracey, so great to see you are painting again! Love the cute mugs view and that WIP looks beautiful! Your older work looks wonderful, too!

bellefrogworks said...

I was thinking of you this week - several times. Glad to see you back in the studio and excited about art. I think your lilies are stunning so far - you haven't lost your touch!!!I also think you are an amazing woman - and I am glad to know you even if from afar.

Corrine at sparkledaysstudio.com said...

I am constantly amazed by your attitude and your uplifting way of being. I am so glad you feel well enough to do the thing you love and we so love seeing what you do. Keep your ever present humor and delight in life...So glad you are felling better. xox

NatashaMay said...

I'm glad to see you're back on track. :) I totally adore your watercolors.

annkrier said...

wishing you a Beautiful recovery - hope you are able to continue to do what you love - it does the world good. Happy PPF.

Jez said...

So wonderful to have you back and with such beautiful artwork, whatever you say about it. Strangely I thought last night 'I must email Tracey'. Should have done it then and there. Will do, and no need for an answer when you are swimming in seas of friendly restorative emails from everyone.
The flowers are gorgeous - real and painted.

FLO said...

Je suis heureuse de votre retour. Profitez de votre peinture, elle est si belle!

Jo Murray said...

You haven't lost your touch Tracey. Beautiful work...and flowers.

Boo said...

You've still got it, girl! I love the view from your kitchen window. Can't wait to see the next installment of the lilies.

I was so happy to see a blog post from you. It always cheers me to find you in my mailbox!!

kat said...

Hello Tracey, I'm so happy you are back at it again, it will do you so good to play with your paints and creativity, beautiful work here as always. Enjoy lots of chocolate and good tea, keep well my friend!
Blessings
Kat

alarmcat said...

happy to see you are back in the studio. paint brushes are magic wands when it comes to healing.

Snap said...

YeeHaw!!!!!!


oxoxoxoxox

hawkes said...

I am so glad you are back in your studio and posting again. You are amazing!

SLScheibe said...

Beautiful so far! The flowers are just gorgeous, the old ones and the new ones. Happy art making again :)

Paula - Buenos Aires said...

Great to see you luv!
Next ones, paint them blue because you can and you have nothing to prove. Then go nanannanananan on the old ones. ;)

Sandra Busby said...

I'm so glad you are feeling well enough to paint again! And I know exactly what you mean when you say that a break makes the pencil feel alien - Not that there is a shred of evidence of that here!! These are all amazing! You haven't lost your touch in the slightest! Keep them coming :0)

Nicole Beadwright Campanella said...

I am glad that you are back in the studio too. Your work is so lovely and I enjoy the steps you show in how you achieve your art.
Happy PPF
Nicole/Beadwright

Niki said...

The lillies are coming along fabulously, and so are you! So glad you feel up to being in the studio.

Oh, and from my perspective, sanity is overrated! Enjoy your painting.

Lynn Richards said...

This is fabulous....so smart to dive in on another painting first and then gain some confidence back. All though you should hardly worry about your talent.

I especially loved your words about the swish of the paint and all the smells and sounds as you got back into the studio. It's an amazing thing to be surrounded by art and how it heals.

Glad - SO glad you are back in your studio.
xoxoxo
lynn

Linda said...

Huge welcome back Tracey!! I have missed your gorgeous sketchings! Glad to hear you felt good enough to get back into arting a bit-and I see you haven't missed a beat-they are beautifully done as usual.Happy PPF!

sharon said...

Wonderful to see you back Tracey, Love the kitchen piece and the cup with I blog..., It feels like that sometimes doesnt it. The flowers are beautiful, your style has changes since the first one, it is more organic now, I love it.

Dianne said...

So happy to see you back in the studio with your paints and art therapy! Gorgeous flowers indeed, and I know you will do them justice...I love your style!

Prairie Jill said...

Welcome back! I'm so glad that you're feeling up to drawing and painting and blogging again. And eating chocolate!

Love the view of your kitchen window, and the flower painting is beautiful, too.

Take care.

MeOfCourse said...

Glad you are back in the studio. Love how your work turned out. Sending you the best. Gloria

Debbie said...

Oh, I'm so glad that you're drawing and painting again! I enjoyed seeing your sketching here, and WIP pics. Your work is always so beautiful.

Serena Lewis said...

SO good to see you posting again!! I love your work and I'm sure those lilies are going to turn out just right. It must feel great to be painting and blogging again. :) xo

Catherine Constance said...

Love your mugs. Fantastic job with the lilies. Although I'm not a fan of their pong. I always take the pongy bits out..
So glad your back painting, it's the best medicine for feel good factor.. :D xx

Bev said...

Oh fab post and know how happy blogging and having a pencil make u ,doing what u love is so empowering,I'm so happy u are sharing with us again my friend ...sending love and hugs and pixie dust ,say hello to Sinus and Phantom Steve lol and Mushu too smooches.....

Ilona Heimböckel said...

Dear Tracey,
I have been an unsteady visitor around the blogs and participating with PPF was unstable too. But I cannot participate without thinking of you, as you are one of the most encouraging visitors on my blog from when I started with PPF. Thank you for all your encouraging words! :-)

I wish you all the best!
Love and hugs
Ilona

Catharina Engberg said...

So happy to see you are back!! A big hug for you my friend! The flowers are looking just lovely allready!

fairy thoughts said...

Hi Tracey
glad to hear you are back painting.
Now, as fabulous as your old lily painting is you wouldn't want your latest one to be the same, would you?
The new one looks much more relaxed and kind of softer, a different style, you've grown.
keep doing what you do.
janet

Debbie said...

i'm glad you are back tracie as you have truly been missed. love your wonderful paintings today! Praying for your continued healing by God. xo

Suzy said...

So happy to see you back painting in your studio! Those lilies are beautiful, can't wait to see them finished. Tracey, you are amazing! Sending you hugs and continued prayers.

Rita said...

The "I Blog Therefore I Am" cup cracked me up! Love it! And the scratch of the pen and swish of the brush did not fail you. :) :) So glad to see you back and painting. You have much support from many.
Love and hugs!!

Arnoldo L. Romero, MLA said...

Yeah, you're back in the studio where you belong! The flowers your sister-in-law gave you are gorgeous, and you really did them justice in your painting. Blessings, my friend!

denthe said...

Happy to see you're feeling well enough to paint again! You were missed ....

Nigel Roberts said...

Late to the party again (so, what else is new?). Oh well, if I can't be first I may as well be last :)

Great to see you producing wonderful artwork again. x

Darnell J Knauss said...

Ahhh, Trace, I'm so glad to see you able to post again and, more importantly, sketch and paint again! All your works of art are breathtaking, even the kitchen shelf!! Thanks for sharing the evolution and the fact that you are doing well enough to get into your studio! I hope the worst is behind you, honey chile, and that blogging and art can become routine for you again. As you say, the best therapy! Huge hugs and much love winging their way to you!! Darnell

Christine said...

Just beautiful work Tracey!

Tammie Dickerson said...

I'm SO happy to see you painting again! LOVE the window scene - especially the "I blog, therefore I am" mug! And WOW - your lilies are coming along marvelously! I think they are going to be better than the first one, I already like the new composition even better! We plant those beautiful lily bulbs here in Missouri, and they come up every year. What a wonderful subject for painting! Glad to have you back!

JKW said...

I am grateful for you too Tracy. The kitchen window is absolutely wonderful. I love seeing other peoples homes through their art. The flower did turn out to be extraordinary. Blessings, Janet PPF

Ayala Art said...

Never did a kitchen window look so fantastic... and the lilies are perfect. Now save me some chocolate! :oD
Hugs!

Lorinda @ Everyday Endeavours said...

So glad to see you back in your 'happy place' Tracey! You haven't lost your touch in the slightest! xx