Thursday, 12 April 2012

A Messy Messy Tale

Something that you may not know about me is that I am very neat
my brain is a mass of missed connections and random thoughts
and my organisation skills are shambolic to say the least
and any chance of remembering a date or a time 
is completely beyond my capabilities
I lose things, forget what I was doing/ saying/ writing
I drop things, trip over anything in a 50 metre radius 
and lose my train of thought as a matter of course...
I am very neat and tidy...
if things are too messy 
I tend to implode into the darkest recesses
of all those worst traits that lurk just beneath my surface
and keeping order in my environment is the only way to keep 
the chaos and randomness, that is my natural state, at bay

this is just about my only nugget of self awareness
and as such you would think that taking part in a book group
with a title called Mess may be something that I want to avoid
of course I figured how bad could it be
how messy could it get
well it gets messy 
very very messy...
Lisa Over The Wright Stuff is running this free group
yes Free
about Mess:  the Manual of Accidents and Mistakes
by Keri Smith
and to get started she asked us to open it to a page and do what it says

I duly did this
and opened it up to a page that asked me to keep track
of random thoughts for a week
now I have addressed the fact that I can be a touch random at times
and this is a trait I barely keep a lid on
so while not exactly out of my comfort zone
it is probably quite a gentle introduction and I am duly doing it
and having a bit of fun with it...
of course not much fun posting about keeping random thoughts for a week
so I opened to another page and it's instructions were as follows...

I considered dripping coffee, because there would be that great colour
but then I figured I didn't want a book that smelt like coffee
and who would waste tea.... that is mightily sacrilegious in my book
and I'm not quite ready to go that far just yet
so dribs and drabs of watercolours that I had on my desk
seemed like just the ticket
I had been activating some twinkling H2O's 
and so this has a lovely sheen and sparkle to it
so sparkly mess seemed very inviting

5 mins later I had a page looking duly messy
if a little sparkly, and 
there was paint on the desk
and the orange had stained my fingers nicely
and I headed off to our 20th anniversary dinner
feeling messy and happy with myself

Now maybe it was a slight buzzing in my head 
due to a little too much celebrating
or whether I was feeling guilty for making a sparkly pretty  mess,
I was pretty unsatisfied when I had  a look this morning
and got to work messing it up a bit more
and while there is a little way to go...
and I may do a bit more to it at some stage
I don't have to finish it
I can leave it as it is
the only question at this stage is...

Is this what Freedom tastes like
or is this just the first step into a descent into chaos in all areas of my life
maybe it is a it of both...
either way
I kind of like that I can just leave it as it is and move onto something else
which sounds like just what I need at the moment...
thinking I may try and squeeze in one more mess before lunch...xx


Yvonne said...

Great post. It's funny because in your ink pouring I see a little face of a red headed girl with rosy cheeks. Does that mean something? LOL I'm usually very neat also, but not so much anymore. And the older I get, the more it doesn't bother me. :)

Belinda Basson said...

There should be a course for people with their heads in the clouds like me...Well My mom always said I had my head in the clouds cos I can never remember what or where I am supposed to be...loved this post.

Valerie-Jael said...

Bein messy is the way to be; your pages have turned out well! I think I would love a book smelling of coffee....Valerie

Nordljus said...

Your page is just gorgeous! I'll have to go and check out that class. Mess - that sounds just like my cup of tea... :)

linda said...

I actually have that book and don't know how to get into it myself... I think sometimes I think I like messy, when really I don't . LOL!

froebelsternchen said...

great - I love this post!

Karen Isaacson said...

I love that you went back at with the pens, but didn't try to turn it into a finished project. great, fun, messy play, and FREEDOM (not chaos) to walk away. -Karen

Unknown said...

Happy anniversary Trace!

Your initial ink blobs remind me of a Rorshchach test, I'm just not sure what I see. Maybe some dancing bugs? It's a very happy and celebratory doodle.

Sounds so freeing and I'm sure you will get lots out of letting go and not being too precious about the creative process and finished work.

Unknown said...

Love this- I can see that you had so much fun with it!

Tammy@T's Daily Treasures said...

Sounds like an interesting project. I don't like messes, but hate cleaning and organizing, so I have a bit of organized chaos going on around here. Some parts are more chaotic than others and vice versa. :) Happy belated anniversary. Sounds like you had a lovely holiday. My favorite Easter candy are the Robin's Eggs (malted milk eggs) -- I bought 4 bags, and hid them from my kids. After eating three whole bags by myself, I decided enough was enough and gave the last bag to a friend who couldn't find them at her grocery store. Hope your week is great. Tammy

Anna said...

oh you should see my house. I was SO embarrassed yesterday when I called the neighbor to sit with napping little one for an emergency. I thought I would die knowing someone saw my stacks and piles and MESS! I need to somehow make a cleaning "to-do" list to mark of each day between all of my creative and computer times. Your watercolor puddles are beautiful.

Rita said...

Loosening up with art is an alien concept for me, too, I hope to try soon. I never connected my nearly OCD organizing with my flitting brain--LOL! The wild internal controlling the external. Interesting, my friend. Interesting!

I love your journal pages! They are wild and free! Love it! You have inspired me! :)

Jennifer McLean said...

I think this book is just what you (and I) need. I'm so glad to hear that you're this way too! I'm so darn scatterbrained, I say my mind is like a sieve! I trip over the rug in front of me all the time and can't stand when my artwork is a mess. No mess around me when it comes to art. Yup, kinda control freak here. lol.
I owe you an email later today!

Beverley Baird said...

Love your "messy" pages - great start to the new book club!
I found my page wasn't that messy but I had fun. You look and sounded like you did as well!

Lorinda.C.F said...

Great post--I love your messy page. I can't wait to see where else your messy endeavors take you!!

Jez said...

Tracey, I'm so glad someone has started putting up their Mess work/play. I have done a few, couldn't wait, but don't know yet how to post it. I have checked out your site several times and love your work. Like you I have to fight a bit with inbred tidiness ('A place for everything and everything in its place' as my Dad used to say so often. I feel very excited to be part of this. Jez

WrightStuff said...

It's a cracking mess! I'm just picking bits of melted crayon out of my finger nails.... May the Mess make magic I say!!

Sinderella's Studio said...

love your mess, looks like a frameable piece of abstract art to me!!! Waiting for my book but may take a journal and start without it!
cheers, dana

gma said...

I can totally relate ...its called adult onset ADD... common among artists. How did your page turn out so cool?

Unknown said...

Sounds quite liberating, indeed! Love your mess.